It's my day...

Bubba has been telling me all day that today is his day. When I asked him what his day meant he said "It's a holiday mommy and that means that I get a treat!", so today was a make believe holiday and I let him have a chocolate ice cream before dinner! Treats before dinner and sweet sugary treats are not usually something that we do, treats are usually something like a fruit or goldfish crackers.  Today though I was feeling like we needed to get out there and do something just for fun.  I really enjoyed making up our own holiday!

Lost and I can't find myself...

To start I just want to say that I love my life, I have a great husband and two wonderful children but with that being said I need to make some changes.

I don't really know who I am anymore, I am a mother, a wife, a student, sister, daughter, volunteer, and friend but I don't know who Stephanie is. I know that may sound odd not knowing who you are but I am so many things for so many people I always put myself last on the list and now I am at a point where I am lost.

Change doesn't come easy to me, I don't like it.  I feel like if I can't find myself I am going to get even more lost and be of no use to anyone.  It's strange, I used to know exactly who I was but now I'm not sure.

Has anyone else been through this?

Dentist

Today was the day that Bubba went for his very first dentist appointment. Can I explian how nervous this made me, all I could picture was him sitting there screaming, kicking, and hitting.  When we finally went back to the room he was a little nervous laying on the table but that didn't last long. He was FANTASTIC, no screaming no nothing just sitting there and letting them clean his teeth. It was cute to watch him ask the dental assistant what all the little gadgets were....he really like the water shooter and the sucker! Bubba has NO CAVITIES!!!!!! I am so proud of how well he did!

Trash Bags..

Bubba if you don't pick up these toys I'm going to put them in a trash bag....

I don't know about you but I can't stand to have 15 million toys spread all across the house. I mean everywhere I step there is a toy and there I am cursing because I have yet again stepped on a hot wheel, or a block, or an Army man and all his gear. 

When I was a kid my mom used to do the same thing, "If you kids don't pick up those toys I am going to put them in a black trash bag and you wont have them anymore", let me tell you she was serious. There were many times that all of our toys ended up in those dreaded black trash bags.

Today I told Bubba that if the toys didn't get picked up I was going to get the trash bag, and he dawdled, so I went into the kitchen and grabbed a trash bag, when I went back into the living room I opened it and it made that thwack noise...let me tell you what he got his little hiny moving! Although I could have done with out the sound effects coming out of Bubba's mouth it got the job done in record time.

From now on the trash bag is going to be my best friend!

Rainy Days..

It has been raining here for the past few days and all I have to say is that is needs to end soon.

Bubba has been going through a rough patch, with The Dad being gone he is going back and forth from crazy tantrum boy to crazy sweet boy. I am at a loss as to what to do with him. I have been trying my hardest to figure out what I can do to make this transition easier on him.

I have to say that some day's I have a pretty hard time with dealing myself. I have been through this before but let me tell you that it feels so much different from the last time. I know that I can get through this deployment, been there done that!

I am hoping that I can find away to keep Bubba’s mind off of things, we got to talk to The Dad a few days ago on Skype and Bubba and Bobbles were so freaking excited to see him. They had the biggest grins on their faces, and were talking/babbling a mile a minute. The one thing that I like about rainy days is when the boys just lay around on the couch together watching tv. It really makes my heart melt. I wish that I could have more moments like this!

Well tomorrow is another day, and hopefully it will be better. I am sure that with a little time things will get better….I hope!

A Paper Hug..

Before The Dad left for his second deployment, this time to Afghanistan, we bought a book for Bubba to read that would try and explain to him what was going to happen.

The book that we got is called "A Paper Hug" by Stephanie Skolmoski, this is one of the best deployment books for kids that I have read. Bubba asks to have this book read almost nightly, his favorite part of the book is when the little boy makes his daddy a paper hug as a surprise. Bubba decided that we needed to make The Dad a paper hug and send it to him in Afghanistan.

First, all you need is construction paper, scissors, glue, string, and a pencil. You trace the hands of your kid, and cut them out. Then you take the string and measure from fingertip to fingertip and cut that length.  After you do that put glue on the back of one hand and place the string on the glue then place the other hand print on top. Tada! You have a paper hand.

The book had a really cute poem that the little boy put on his hand prints but Bubba decided that he wanted to put , "Here's a hug. Just for you to snuggle. I love you Daddy".  I think that The Dad will get a kick out of the paper hug that Bubba made him.  I also think that it will really make Bubba happy when The Dad comes home and still has his little paper hug.

I think that if I can find small creative things for Bubba (and eventually Bobbles) to do then the year that The Dad is gone will not seem so long. I just want to make sure that Bubba feels like he is still connected to The Dad even though he doesn't get to see him everyday.

Oh how I have neglected you....

Oh where, oh where has my little blog gone...

I have been a little MIA and that kinda bums me out a bit, I really love having a blog so I am going to be better at posting on it!

So much has happened since the last time that I wrote, The boys have grown like weeds, Bubba is so tall now that he can ride quite a few of the rides at Silver Dollar City.  Bobbles is about to be 10 months old and he is 21 lbs and 29 inches long. He is crazy big.


Both of the boys recently had a bout with Croup, let me tell you if your kid has never had this I hope to goodness they never do. I felt so bad they were both on steroids, but Bobbles also had to use a breathing machine, at first he hated it but then he would start licking the fumes as they were going in his mask.

School is officially over until next semester! I am very happy about this school is getting harder and is taking up way more of my time. But I only have 72 more credit hours until I graduate!! Woot Woot!

The biggest thing that has happened since the last time that I have posted is that The Dad has deployed! He is going to Afghanistan for one year.  He has not been gone that long, but let me tell you it has been crazy since he left.  Bubba is having some major behavior issues, throwing tantrums, yelling(screaming), not eating dinner, etc.. I personally think that all this is happening because he really doesn't understand why The Dad had to go away and this is the way that he deals with his emotions.  Bobbles is just being Bobbles, he doesn't know what is going on, so he just goes along his marry way, although he does love his daddy doll!

So, that is about all I can think of to catch up on and my goal for this year is to write on this blog and get out my feelings, share stories about the boys, and just try to stay sane!